Struggles, Depression, and Trials

Since November, we have been debt free. Filing bankruptcy did wipe our debt but started a whole new set of problems. We were instructed by our lawyer to take out some small loans to start slowly rebuilding our credit, but no bank will give us a loan. How are we supposed to rebuild our credit when we have been denied for everything.
Our money situation has gotten slightly better but not by much. Before we filed bankruptcy we were over our budget around by around 1,000 dollars a month. Now we can save 25 dollars a month. which doesn't add up to much. We really would like to be saving more but I have cut down our budget to the bare minimum.
I also have been going through a severe round of depression. I almost put myself in the hospital because of it. Thankfully I have found LDS Family Services. They are helping me try to work through it. These past 5 months have been a struggle. I don't want to move, clean, play with Kayl, turn the lights on, or pretty much everything. It makes me feel like I'm a terrible mother and wife, which throws my further into my depression.
I really want to go to school but I know that it will put more financial strain on our little family. We are already spread so thin that I just can't bring myself to apply. Todd has been working 55+ hours a week and I can see the stress on his face everyday.
We would really like to move to a cheaper place to save some money but we can't find a 2 bedroom apartment in Orem for cheaper than what we are paying now.
It has been really hard for us, but we try to make the best of it. We just wish we could catch one little break that could cause the dam, that is holding us back, to break.

Power Wheeling in the rain

Kayl is getting better at driving his Jeep. (finally)

Kayl Meets his Idol

Kayl was so excited to meet Spongebob he ran right up to him and gave the biggest hug ever. So fun!!

City Creek Mall Fountians

Kayl Loves going to City Creek!!

Valentine's Day

Todd and I celebrated Valentine's Day two weeks ago, but I still surprised him with a big box of chocolate, a new shower curtain, and a decorated door!

Family Night Fun

We went to The Provo Beach Resort on Monday and ended up spending 4 hours playing around. We went bowling, played arcade games and played in the big jungle gym!

I scared him so bad!

Santa Pictures Thru the Years

We take Kayl to the Mall Santa every year and I finally scanned all of the picture in.

Year 1

Year 2

Year 3

Year 4

Year 5

Fun Times!

What did I get myself into?!?!

Todd and Kayl look so much alike, and they have such wild personalities. What did I get myself into?

What a Fun day!!

Today we got to take Kayl four wheeling for the first time. He absolutely loved it and didn't want leave!

Kayl and Daddy

Kayl being silly!

Kayl and Grandpa coming down a hill

Kayl and Grandpa!

It was such a blast!

Dino Day

Have I ever told you how much Kayl loves Dinosaurs? No, well he is totally in love with anything that has to do with dinosaurs especially Raptors. Kayl loves to watch the Jurassic Park movies and for Christmas we got him a lot of dinosaur stuff.
Today I decided that we would have a Dino Day after he came home from school. First we started off at the BYU Dinosaur museum. It's small, but Kayl loved it!

He is such a little cheeser!!
Our next stop was The Thanksgiving Point Dinosaur museum. Kayl was so in love here. He got to see his Raptor.

Kayl and the Raptor

He go so dirty!

Raptor without Kayl

Big Shark

My little Paleontologist

Now to end our day we are sitting at home eating popcorn and watching Jurassic Park!! Such a fun day, I'm exhausted!!