Wednesday, January 5, 2011

Concerning Babies

I have found myself getting baby hungry. I keep seeing a lot of my friends having their second or third child and I find myself jealous. I'll admit that Todd and I have been trying for over a year and a half now with no luck.
Things just got really bad for me health wise. The doctor was about to put me on some fertility drugs when all of a sudden my health took a turn for the worse. So, we had to put off trying for a baby. I find myself in tears most nights cause I'm longing for another child that I can hold in my arms.
Probably the worst day of my life was after I had my D&C last year and my doctor said if my body started bleeding like that again they would have to do a hysterectomy. I was devastated to hear that.
After many prayers and fasts we got the impression that we are not done having children. I felt a little better but I still feel like my body just wants to call it quits and not ever let me have a child again.
The past year and a half has been the hardest of my life. I have been to 20 different doctors who have no idea what is happening. It is so frustrating to be sick with something that no one knows what it is. My hope this year is to be healthy enough to have another child. Todd and I have both gotten the impression that it is time.
I know that it will be a long road and I would appreciate prayers and support.Thanks to everyone who reads this blog. I appreciate the love you guys have for me.


Diana said...

A year and a half....I know the feeling

Layla said...

But the good news is that you actually have a beautiful little boy. Some people don't have that blessing. You are much luckier than you know.

Myrna said...

Amen to what Layla said. And those big breaks in age between Nancy and Patrick? 4 years. Patrick and Josie? 5 years. Yes indeed. I didn't WANT my kids to be so far apart in age; but that is how it worked out. Especially since Patrick was so much younger than Nancy, I really wanted him to have a little sibling to play with. But the space between him and Josie was even longer...but, in time, the babies came. I just had to wait.