Saturday, February 27, 2010

Sunday, February 21, 2010

Prayers for my friends

I have three friends who need some prayers right now.
First is Katie Harkin. Katie and I met when I worked at Dollar Tree and we became really close friends. Last Sunday she gave birth, after being in the hospital for two months on bed rest, to twins. I got the phone call from her an hour after and she was said to report that one of them was stillborn. We cried together for thirty minutes. Her other baby is in the NICU and was only a pound and a half when he was born. I told her that I would pray for her.
Second is Emily Jacobs. I met Emily when I worked at Iggy's. She was one of the sweetest girls ever. Emily was in a terrible car accident in Denver CO the other day. She lost her right leg just below her knee. To make matters worse, she doesn't have insurance. She is a fighter and has been thru 8 surgeries so far. I pray for her nightly so she can come back to her family in Utah safely.
Third is Julia Robinson. I know her thru Tyson Stewart. The other day her dogs were outside in Provo when they were shot. Her dog Baily made it home and is doing surprisingly well. Her dog Roscoe has still not been found and she thinks that he was killed. I can't believe that someone would shot some innocent animals in the middle of the city.
Please pray for my friends. I know they need the prayers right now.

Wednesday, February 3, 2010

Food for the Bi-Polar disorder

For a long while now I've had Bi-Polar disorder. I know it is hard to believe that I could be depressed most of the time. I've found excellent ways to hide it. Anyway, I usually get really depressed when I get stressed. I found out recently that most of my stress was caused by our money issues. They have now started to resolve themselves and the stress lifted for three days. I felt completly at ease with life and knew everything would work out.
Today I was hit by some blindsides that knocked me off my game. First, Todd almost lost his job because their insurance company won't insure him to drive the company truck cause he has had a few to many tickets which means he has to use the van for work which means I have no car to run my errands I need to run during the day. Second, Todds father tried to contact him today to beg for money cause he just lost his job and left his wife. Third, I've had an ongoing medical problem that has been making me sick for years but the doctors don't believe me.
For the past 5 years I haven't been able to control my body temperature. It has gotten really bad lately. I constantly have a fan on in the winter and a heater on in the summer. I thought for the longest time that I was crazy. I have no fever what so ever and I pant like a dog all day. I usually have the door open when I can. I think it is part of my depression. I don't really know cause I've had my depression longer.
Today was a very stressful and depressing day for me. In the past when I got depressed I would eat and eat. In the beginning of my depression my comfort food was Bacon. Terrible for me but so yummy. Soon it became sweets such as chocolate or strawberry jam. Weird I know. This new comfort food is totally outside of any comfort food that I can think of. I always want a Cobb Salad from Iggy's when I get depressed. At least it is healthier than my other comfort foods.
Sorry, just venting today. Very stressful.